There's something that I've been putting off for the longest time. Putting off as in not just doing but even thinking about. It's something that I need to face, something that is on my mind unconsciously but it's also something that terrifies me. You know when you have to do something but you don't want to do it because you're afraid to find out the truth? Or now that you know you have to face it? You don't have a choice anymore. When you don't know, there's always a doubt but hey you don't know so you don't have to do anything about it, right? Knowing just makes it more real. I don't know what to do, it's like, I need to find out but I'm so afraid of knowing...